come some rainy day...
"we move on, put those dreams away...thinking that we'll find them, come some rainy day." ~Wynonna Judd
you know, you don't really ever think about the end. we go along, taking things for granted (even though we say we don't), and one day...that's it. no explanation, no warning, no goodbye, no...anything. you think they'll always be there. the one person (or people) you never think will ever go away. through boyfriends and husbands, births and deaths, marriages and divorces...they're supposed to always be there. we used to live by the "two friends are one soul in 2 bodies" quote. i guess i should know better. life doesn't work that way. that isn't reality. things happen, people drift apart. i should've known better, but then again, i thought i knew YOU better.
i go on about my days as if nothing's wrong, nothing's off. but each and every single day, it hurts. it hurts unbelievably. it hurts as though i've lost the closest family member i've ever had. it hurts as much as it did when i lost my parents. so many times each day, even now, something will happen, or i'll think of something, and i want to pick up the phone and call...but i can't. literally, emotionally, and every other which way, i can't reach you anymore. you're so lost that i can't find you. i've never told a single soul the way i feel about this whole mess, but here i am, baring my soul to the world. i can't hold it in anymore. it has to go somewhere. it's breaking me in two.
you're the one person i always thought would be there. you knew me better than i knew myself, but i don't think i ever really knew you at all. the you i thought i knew would have never chosen this path you're on now. when i graduated, i was on a mission to save the world. i had no idea that the closest person to me needing saving the most. you were always, always there for me...and i can't help but feeling, given everything that's happened, that i wasn't there when you needed me most. not that i could've done anything to change the course of things, but maybe.
you know, you don't really ever think about the end. we go along, taking things for granted (even though we say we don't), and one day...that's it. no explanation, no warning, no goodbye, no...anything. you think they'll always be there. the one person (or people) you never think will ever go away. through boyfriends and husbands, births and deaths, marriages and divorces...they're supposed to always be there. we used to live by the "two friends are one soul in 2 bodies" quote. i guess i should know better. life doesn't work that way. that isn't reality. things happen, people drift apart. i should've known better, but then again, i thought i knew YOU better.
i go on about my days as if nothing's wrong, nothing's off. but each and every single day, it hurts. it hurts unbelievably. it hurts as though i've lost the closest family member i've ever had. it hurts as much as it did when i lost my parents. so many times each day, even now, something will happen, or i'll think of something, and i want to pick up the phone and call...but i can't. literally, emotionally, and every other which way, i can't reach you anymore. you're so lost that i can't find you. i've never told a single soul the way i feel about this whole mess, but here i am, baring my soul to the world. i can't hold it in anymore. it has to go somewhere. it's breaking me in two.
you're the one person i always thought would be there. you knew me better than i knew myself, but i don't think i ever really knew you at all. the you i thought i knew would have never chosen this path you're on now. when i graduated, i was on a mission to save the world. i had no idea that the closest person to me needing saving the most. you were always, always there for me...and i can't help but feeling, given everything that's happened, that i wasn't there when you needed me most. not that i could've done anything to change the course of things, but maybe.
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